Lost Time deals with BDK's struggles of getting older, past memories and growing isolation.
lyrics
As time casts shadows on all your dreams,
The youth grows farther as it seems.
And friends, forgotten in between,
When time casts shadows on all of your dreams
So when he dies, read on his stone
"a desperado, he was alone"
And when you see him, throw him a bone
a desperado, he's all alone.
They say a thousand words for every picture that you see
I glimpse back at all my old ones', see the joys of bein' free.
A cute little kiddie, swimmin' in a sea of dreams
Sands a time are flyin' by and not easily redeemed.
Push the visions in the distance just another day
Then today comes in an instant and now there isn't a ray
Of hope. This dope got my mind tied on a rope.
It's lassoed and now the chokes are bein' cloaked, surrounded by smoke.
I woke up in the morning and the day has passed me by.
How many more can I explore before the sun ignores her rise?
Homicide on time, pseudo smiles, ridin' high,
'Til I catch reflections etchin' at a wretched dry disguise.
A hardened visage hidden by this image no longer soft,
But you wear it too long; now figure out how to take it off.
Immature thoughts, ur lost, scoffin' time at twenty-five.
Now the suns behind ur eighty-nine, and find ur askin why?
Chorus
So here I go, it's time to share it. Now the woes are quite apparent.
So I swear that I will parish solitary like my parents.
Beyond the Sea, I sail it, but there is no Bobby Darin
To sweetly serenade me and the sea is always barren.
Sittin' back sweatin' as I'm frettin' this nest of regrets,
denyin' requests that end in success, but it arrested my mind in a debt.
Bad as a bet. Had to reflect. But I can't recollect all of the threats.
Infinitesimal mess of events, all met up impressin' a snowball effect.
Yes, I'm blessed with friends and family, Express it with all of my heart.
But from the start. I was too smart. Why don't they get that I'm fallin' apart?
I'm fearin' the tomb, I'm pearin' the gloom. I'm tryin' to climb, this mountain of doom.
Prayin' that soon by the earth and the moon, my blues begin playin' a change in the tune.
Chained beside the fear of merely spending my days a slave
What a display, is it the same dismay I gain afraid of the grave?
Goin insane, prayin in vane, take away all of the pain.
Spillin' disdain in the rain, but still I refuse to refrain.
Chorus
Sad, it's my fault my first instinct is getting a drink
Dad slapped the can in my hand, patted my back, then laughed and he winked
Bad, my life is a wink and a blink, seem to be sinkin' so deep to the brink
Sign it ink, I think too much I think my life is beginning to stink.
But forget it; it's the pits, it's time for us to admit it.
This is it. It's all we got so find a spot and try to live it.
That shadow lurkin' guy is sittin' like quite the creeper,
'Til the days run dry then find you're spyin' the rise in the eyes of the Reaper.
Before you had the chance on flashin' back for meanings deeper,
You're sour at all the hours lost by crashin' sound of sleeper.
The Father of Time is tip-toeing the line to be taking 'em finders and keepers.
Disguisin the signs at the prime one's. Why can't we be buyin' 'em back a bit cheaper?
.when the day comes when I die, I'm gonna follow lights up to the sky.
I'm gonna swallow my pride and get high, I'm gonna spread out my wings and let fly.
Fightin back cries from my eyes, no use in us askin' him why?
At the end of the run, look back on the fun, it's over and done, goodbye.
Spoken: It's a sign. I'll be fine. when I say goodbye. They'll be no lost time.
credits
from Mandatory Quarantine,
released April 21, 2012
Benjamin David Kerns, Muriel Kerns
Beat by Sinima Beats
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